heads or trails?

"heads!" said the other person in the room. She wondered, what was the question... easy: "To b myself, or force myself and shut up!"
I tossed up the coin, it falls, and it was... heads.
So it began... again
as many times in my life. 180 degree again. no problem, I have experience. I do it all my life. always changing. and again.
For a few days, it was hard to wake up, hard to eat and hard to breathe. but days after days, it's geting more easy.
I can handle my habits now.
but sudenly, some of my plans are ruined. not a big deal, but I expected to someone.
now, the patience is the best way, as I see.